Happy 2016 friends! I hope this year brings you much joy. I already know 2016 is going to be a great year because I'm getting married this year!!!!
Being a bride has been interesting thus far and while on the outside the only thing that's changed is I wear a diamond ring on my left hand everyday on the inside so much has changed!
I knew that we would be excited to be engaged and of course our families but I never realized how much love would surround Shaun and I when we announced our engagement. It's so wonderfully overwhelming to have so many people so excited and happy for you. Of course, my heightened emotional state contributes to that; ever since we got engaged I've felt very emotional. Very sensitive to things that would have never bothered me before and very sentimental in general. My emotions have been rather unpredictable as well - a lot of girls cry when they choose their dress and you'd think with my mom not there I would have been a prime crying candidate, but nope. Then two days later my Dad called me on the way to work asking how it went and as soon as I hung up I bawled my eyes out. I couldn't stop crying, even at work and took the afternoon off to cry for HOURS at home but then the next day I was perfectly fine. Weird.
Basically my emotions range from:
I spent my whole life believing the myth that wedding planning is wonderful and fun - bubble bursts because it is surprisingly stressful. The options available to a bride are overwhelming to say the least and the prices tags even more so - why does it cost 3 times a monthly mortgage to rent a place for one day???? And you'd think when we have multiple quality vendors within budget would make it easy but nope, more stress because now we have to pick one and gosh darn it they're both so talented and nice people - why do we have to tell one no.
And then there's the fact that people will be traveling to our wedding. The fact that people are taking the time and expense to surround us with love is overwhelming in its self but then it does add to the pressure of wanting to make the reception as awesome as possible so our guests will know how much we appreciate them being there. I had a caterer put "nice" disposable plates in their proposal and while I kept my reaction on the inside my inner bridezilla was full of rage - we have family and friends traveling 1,000 miles to be there and you want us to serve them on plastic HOW DARE YOU!!! Now the perfectly reasonable person inside of me knows that of the 30ish weddings I've attended some of them must have used disposable plates and not only do I not remember but I simply did not care but for some reason now that it's my wedding all these details have an inflated sense of importance.
Don't get me wrong, I am so excited to BE married; I just didn't realize the road there was so complicated.
We're attending a big bridal show at the end of the month so hopefully we'll have most of our vendors finalized in February and life can return to normal for a few months. In the meantime, I just keep reminding myself how all our loved ones are going to be in one room at the same time and it's going to be awesome; plus cake - yum!